“Making It Look Easy”
Hearing others perspective of me is informative entertainment. To some I may seem like a wild child, with no filter and no cares. Some may think I’m a party animal and all I do is partake in extracurricular activities...which is partly true but not entirely accurate. To others I am portrayed as a mature, young adult, who got her shit together...but then again that’s only the half of it. I am whoever I decide I want the world to see at particular moments. I definitely have a non chalant attitude at times. I could spend a whole week partying and still not get tired. Then there’s the side of me that’s very disciplined and hard working when it comes to my education and my profession. There’s layers of exploration that compose all the pieces of me.
At 23 the thing I look forward to the most is relaxing at home with my boyfriend, with a good book in one hand and a blunt in the next. I read a lot, I write a lot, I indulge in wine and I smoke. These are my favorite past times, but don’t get me wrong, I am definitely on my shit. I graduated college, receiving my B.A. in 4 years. I’m a full time student, I work full time as a teacher and I manage a blog. I’m a proficient in the English language so writing has always come as second nature to me. My ultimate aspirations are to be a New York Times best selling author, a public speaker and a university professor with a focus in African American women studies. I want to be an example of you can work hard to having it all and still have fun with it.
I’ll be the first to admit; although, on the surface it may seem like 3/4 of being a responsible adult all the time, I’m nowhere near the finish line and I’m completely content with that. I don’t have it all figured out, I’m just setting goals and letting it flow. I don’t have a car, my own place and I don’t have 5 racks stashed in my savings (but I’m blaming my inability to save on my spending habits). Sometimes I get side tracked on the pursuit of my dreams, but I never compare myself to others. I’m exactly where I’m suppose to be, because it’s all apart of God’s plan. I wasn’t brought up in a wealthy family, I’ve been juggling school, work and my social life since I was 15. Everything I have, I earned it and for that I’m really proud of myself. I don’t have to drive a Benz, live in a condo downtown and my passport has 10 stamps, to know I’m the shit, regardless. I work my ass off everyday and partake in hoodrat things, all the whole scratching goals off my todo list and making it look sexy.
Trust your journey and keep faith in the process. It is perfectly ok to not have all your shit together, because no one expects you too. The fabricated expectations social media sets and pressures people to achieve, aren’t realistic. Social media is full of imposters, fake love and flexers. No one in their early 20’s has it all figured out, and part of the reason is because we’re still finding ourselves. Life is about the enjoyment, less worrying about not living up to Twitter standards and more focus on accomplishing your own goals.